I've been going through some trying times emotionally lately, and a few days ago I remembered this blog and why I started it.
I failed to stick with my overall blog idea of improving myself as a writer; but part of this
blog's purpose was to kill time and make me feel like I had something worth while to do. But, when I started blogging my social calendar started to fill.
Apparently this started in the beginning of February and hasn't stopped since. A few changes have occurred in my life, most for the better.
I started hanging out with all my friends. I don't know what was keeping me from this before. But, my life changed and I started to feel alive again. I even appreciated the bad times because I actually had emotions.
Also, I gave up drinking for Lent. That was pretty much the last Christian thing I did.
I have belonged to the same church since birth. I feel as if it is time for a change. Does this mean I am leaving forever. I certainly hope not. Christmas Eve service at First Presbyterian is one of my favorite things.
I have just been concentrating on things that make me happy, and that just hasn't been church. Maybe I spent too much time there and it just wore on me. Maybe I need to look for other outlets. The one thing I do know is that I love God. I do not know Him, but I love that He is always there for me and will always be there for me, through the good and the bad, through the day and the night. That is an amazing feeling, and I am so blessed to have it.
I think that's a nice way to describe how I feel - blessed. Most days I just cannot believe I get to surround myself with so many amazing people. How can all of my friends be so awesome? And they want to hang out with me? Awesome.
Thanks for being a part of my life.
-Claire
